Why I’m Returning to the Page

Day 1 of my self-made and self-imposed writing challenge.

Today's Prompt: Your Writing Comeback-

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     Today, actually, a couple of hours ago, watching ‘The Summer I Turned Pretty’ and mindlessly scrolling between various apps on my phone, I opened up my email to see Ann Handley’s most recent newsletter, Total Annarchy #192. A newsletter that every time I read it, I think, ‘Man, I should really get back into writing.’ And every time, I don’t.

     There has never been a good reason not to do it. But I’ve always put it off as something on my ‘To Do Later’ list. An ever-growing, rarely-checked graveyard for my personal projects. This time, something about the mix of conversations I’ve had lately with my good friends about futures and how we can work our way into careers we feel passion and excitement for, and reading Ann’s newsletter, I decided it was time to take this task off that dreaded list.

     I knew I wanted to start with my ‘Why’ so I could be reminded of my reason to do this. And why indeed?

     Discovering myself, and I am certain anyone’s self, is a never-ending process. I have felt so lost with my career, my future, and the world around me. I decided to finally listen to the advice of many who have come before me and Listen To My Inner Child.

I had to ask myself: Who was she? What did she want? What did she enjoy?

I came up with two main things: Reading and writing.

Little Emily dreamed of being a writer. Big Emily, at some point, abandoned that dream and deemed it impossible. I had cut out the one thing I enjoyed the most because I felt some inane need to reject myself before anyone else could.

     I may not know yet what I want to write about — but I know I want to write. My why is inherent to my being. It’s who I am now and who I am becoming. I want to explore all facets of myself before I pick my path. Do I like to research topics? Do I want to create new worlds and imaginary people? Do I simply want the freedom to express myself and my bold opinions? I am determined to find out through my self-imposed challenge.

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